{"id":53,"date":"2010-11-21T01:30:00","date_gmt":"2010-11-20T20:00:00","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/ajaymreddy.com\/53"},"modified":"2013-05-09T07:29:20","modified_gmt":"2013-05-09T01:59:20","slug":"53-reading-update","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/ajaymreddy.com\/53-reading-update\/","title":{"rendered":"Reading update"},"content":{"rendered":"
Tonight, I am not able to sleep. It isn’t the first time either. I guess it happens to everyone, at some point of time or other. What’s keeping me awake? Worry. Yes, that’s right. Worried about the partner who I think cheated me out of my entire savings and worried about not doing anything productive all day. I have been looking for a job since some time now. And sometimes, I feel I should just take some random offer and be done with it. At least then I will probably be tired enough that I will fall asleep easily. I don’t express my feelings much usually, I don’t see a reason to. I am open about everything and usually what I think is pretty clear to everyone around me. I have a suspicion that worry is the reason for my hair turning white, and maybe not eating right. The past few days, I have been reading – and doing nothing else. It has been making me feel really guilty. Why am I reading books and whiling my time away instead of searching for a job? Isn’t that my priority right now? Will I always be this way – unfocused and random in nature? Even now, I have a ton of things I feel like doing – maybe read brit’s blog, or login to twitter or prowl facebook and see if someone interesting is online. Right now, I don’t even feel like reading a book.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
21 Nov 2010 1.08 am Tonight, I am not able to sleep. It isn’t the first time either. I guess it happens to everyone, at some point of time or other. What’s keeping me awake? Worry. Yes, that’s right. Worried about the partner who I think cheated me out of my entire savings and worried…<\/span><\/p>\n